Repentance is often not possible because its foundation is faulty. We may root repentance into sin, and sin as the cause of all the miserable things we are at. We may be assuming our problems as punishments, curses and other unknown things behind and are thought to be somehow connected to sin. So, repentance is to get rid of all these miseries. Instead, true repentance is our openness to the life of God.
To be
in the life of God, the direction given to us is to renounce doing evil and to
learn to do good. Why do we do evil? There may be some people intentionally
doing evil. They know fully that what they choose to do are evil, but they
sacralise those evils as good for the support from others. Many evils we have
in our life may have happened by mistake, and we are carrying the burden of it.
We regret on them. Many other evils are out of our helplessness. It happens.
Often, they may be justified, because there may be hidden pains or injuries
that lead to those evils. Often, we may be attached to these evils or the
injuries behind them though they are painful. God also may justify them,
because God knows what has happened in reality. But God does not want us to
remain in them because he knows that they damage us however justifiable they
are. God calls us to his life, in which we may be consoled and comforted and
experience life. Repentance is this readiness to take this option before us.
Learn to do good is not just doing some good deeds, it includes our views, thinking, our conversations, attitudes to events and people, and of course our actions. The good we are called to possess have a name that is Christ. So, the goal of repentance is to be like him. It is a path of grace. Just like Christ proclaimed the gospel offering us life, where we find an episode of our life within the gospel story. Christ’s life was sacrificial and redemptive, our ‘good-life’ is also to be sacrificial and redemptive. Our memories give us a language to reread our pain and injuries which may hold us in evil. Let us have the language of the gospel to reread and reinterpret our lives. We have the altar to which come with our burdens and sorrows, there is another living altar of Christ at home where repentance becomes fruitful, offering sacrifice and being redemptive for others. It is not about how broken we are or how damaged are our relationships, but it is all about the possibility of our entry into the grace available for us.